I am Ryan Knight; I live with my older brother Tommy and my younger sister Isabella. To tell you the truth I am Gay and proud of it just one thing I can't tell my brother or five of his friends living with us...Sadly my sister found out one day when I thought I was home alone for once and was watching a homosexual movie. So that is how she found out. She told me that she really didn't care as long as I am happy. Which made me feel better for her to tell me so. As for my love life it is a bit complex since the one I like is Ryo and he is a big playboy. He is much taller than me and his smile can melt your heart in a heartbeat. Ever since our parents moved some place else my brother invited his friends to live with us. Such as Ryo, Yuki, Jake, Alex and Adam. Since I am sixteen and he his eighteen it can be considered illegal if we do come to date. I really doubt that we will ever go out since he is straight and I am gay. "Ryan can I come in?" I heard Isabella asked behind the door. "Yeah sure come in." I answered since I wasn't doing or watching anything wrong. "Tommy said if it was alright for you to take me to summer school since he is a bit busy at the moment if you know what I mean." She said blushing and I couldn't help but laugh since she is still so pure. "Alright get my keys and meet me down stairs." I answered as I stood up to get dressed. She smiled closing the door behind her. I let out a big sigh thinking what will she do with out me. After I was dressed there were a knock on my door. "Isabella I told you to wait for me." I said opening my door to my surprise it was Ryo. "Hey you going out right? Well can you give me a ride to the store after you drop off Isabella?" He asked smiling meekly and I couldn't help but blush. "Yeah sure." I answered looking at him feeling my face burn even hotter. Ryo couldn't drive himself since his driver license was token away. "Thanks man you a life saver." He sighed in relieved. I rolled my eyes not expecting him to even notice my blushing. "No problem bud." I said quickly and patted his back and walked past him. "Let's go." Ryo nodded and followed me down stairs where Isabella waited for me. "What Ryo doing here?" She asked a bit mad since she didn't typically liked him since he doesn't realize my liking him. "Oh he needed to go to the store is all." I answered looking at her to behave since it will be my first chance for me to be alone with him. "Oh I see." She simply said and walked out unlocking my four door black car. "Can I drive?" She asked and I shook my head since she almost crashed last time and she pouted getting into the back seat to allow Ryo in the passenger side. Ryo just stood there probably thinking why Isabella is mad at him. He usually hates it when people come to be mad at him. When we reached her middle school she got out waving goodbye. I pulled out and sped towards Walmart. "Hey Ryan how are you and Katie?" Ryo asked and I felt a slight pain since I was just using her as so that no one would find out. "We good. She said she'll be over there when we get back." I said remembering the text she sent me. "So what do you need?" Ryo chuckled and looked at me shaking his head. "Condoms...you know gotta stay safe just in case....I'm guessing you never done it with Katie." He laughed out loud which made my windows shake and my heart tighten. "Nah I don't think I can do it to her. I don't wanna break her heart you know." I said and he stopped laughing for a few minutes. "Ryan you can't be doing all the emotional stuff. It will tie you down. Should be more like me and have one night stands." He laughed again but a empty laugh. When we reached Walmart he went to where you can buy condoms as I went to go buy shampoo and some cologne. I walked over to a cash register I knew the guy that was ringing up my items. "Hey Ryan....It's nice to see you again.." Chris said blushing deeply and I sighed because he was the one that gotten me to admit that I was gay. "Yeah whatever how much?" I asked coldly but I didn't want to be nice to him since he still has a crush on me. I don't like leading people on but I had to do Katie so everyone would stop teasing about how I was gay and all which I am but still. "$15.38" He said a bit hurt but I couldn't help but feel bad. "Hey Chris-a-fag." Ryo said behind me. I didn't notice until he said what he had said. "Oh...Ryo hello.." He said with a hint of sadness in his voice. I paid him and grab my stuff trying to hold my tears back since I knew that was how Ryo will act around me. Once he brought his stuff. We left Walmart and once we got home I saw Katie's car in the driver way. I pulled up next to it and went inside to see Jake and Katie having a make-out party. "What the fuck Jake?" I said stunned and looked at Katie. "Katie? You cheating on me with a friend of mine?" I yelled but mostly asked. Looking how they jumped away from each other I felt my face burn with embarrassment since Ryo was standing right next to me. "Yo Ryan I can explain!" Jake said getting off the chair walking towards me placing his hand on my shoulder. I pushed it off glaring at him. "I thought I could trust you but now I know I can't and you get your slutty ass out of my damn house!" I was mad yeah. Even though it wasn't true love I still felt hurt. She had silent tears falling down her face and ran out the front door. Jake was looking at me like he was truly sorry but I didn't care he freaking betrayed me. "Ry.." He was about to say my name but I broke him off. "Whatever just get out of my sight." I sighed tired but relieved that she was a slut. Ryo came by my side and patted my back. "Hey Ryan I know it must hurt but that's why you must play the girls before they play you..." He said walking up stairs. I rolled my eyes and walked up to my room closing the door. Laying on the bed my mind started to race about how Ryo treated Chris and if I were to come out how will he treat me. Also I kept thinking of how Jake must feel guilty and much much more. There were a knock on my door "Hey little brother" Tommy said walking in my room. "Yeah what is it Tommy?" I asked already knowing that he his going to throw a party. "I hear about your girl cheating on you so I thought we should throw a party so that you can find a better girl." He said as his girlfriend Annie walked in as well. Katie is her younger cousin so I am pretty sure she going to say sorry for her behalf. "Tommy can you get out please. I will like to talk with Ryan alone." Annie said with a straight face so that no one can tell what she was thinking. "Yeah sure. How does that sound Ryan?" He asked at the door "It's fine really. I'm not doing anything or buying!" I said half joking and he just laughed closing the door behind him. Annie came over to my bed and sat beside me. "Look Ryan I am so sorry for what Katie did to you and not only that with one of your friends. I feel terrible that she would do such a thing. If there is anything you need to talk about just call me. Also I will give her a good talking to when I get back home. Okay?" She said all at once like I was really hurt. "Yeah that's fine Annie. Plus don't worry about it she made a mistake and I just happen to find out." I said calmly and a small wary smile appeared on her beautiful face. "Alright Ryan if you say so." She said getting up and gave me a hug before leaving.
I looked at the clock to see that it had said 3:48 and I rushed out of my room, out the door, into my car and sped away to pick up Isabella. All I could think of was why I let my mind slip and forget about my cute little sister. I slowly stopped at the stop light and answered my phone knowing that Tommy was going to chew me out about speeding since one of his friends had died from doing so. "Hello?" I answered and I heard a deep exhale "Ryan...What the fuck have I told you about speeding?!" He yelled through the phone. "I know I know brother but I forgotten to pick up Isabella. Calm down I'm at the stop light." I said with a sigh knowing this isn't the end of it. "Alright you better slow down." He said and hanged up anger still in his voice. Ugh...I hate when he tells me this because it seems like he knows of my deep secret about street racing. The light changed and I sped anyway and made it just in time for her to be getting out of school. I kept the doors unlocked knowing that she just come in away way. Just in two minutes she and her friend Mary came inside and closed the door behind them. "Hello girls. You hungry?" I asked and they both nodded knowing that they will I headed towards Apple-bee's. When I reached the parking lot I stopped the car and looked at them. "You two better get the two for twenty." I said and got out at the same time they did. "So h...how you been Ryan?" Mary asked a bit nervous. She is a year younger then my sister and I see her as one as well, but I can tell that she like me more then that. I hope that feeling will change. "Okay I guess. What about you two?" I asked not really wanting to say that my freaky girlfriend cheated on me even though I didn't love her. "Mm...Good...Jason talked to Isabella today but she so blew him off." Mary said as Isabella glared at her. "Mary! I told you I didn't just blew him off. I just told him that I like someone else." She sighed and Mary winked at her. Wow girls are so silly. A lady meet us at the hostess desk and took us to our table. A few minutes later a tall blonde head girl came up and introduced herself to us. "Hello I'm Jenny. I'll be your waitress today; what can I start you off with?" She asked politely. Mary and Isabella answered together "We'll like a ice sweet tea." and smiled at each other they are very close so I am surprise my sister hasn't told Mary about me being gay. I looked at Jenny as she began to blush "I'll like ice water please." She nodded and walked away. "Ooh Ryan she was flirting!" Mary teased but with a hint of anger in her voice. "Mary don't worry he has a girl already." Isabella said winking at me knowing that she'll want something in return. "exactly no we broke up today." I said and looked at Isabella with a smirk. "Oh my Ryan how can you keep a happy face like that!" Mary sighed in happiness. "Well because I didn't love her." I answered truthfully. Mary looked at me in shock since I never really sounded hateful. Isabella laughed and began to have tears fall from her eyes. "What's funny?" I asked and she pointed at me and slowly stopped and sight. "It's because your gay silly." She said as the waitress walked by and Mary nodded in agreement. So Isabella had told her but she still likes me? Why is that girl so hard to understand. "Here is your drinks and are you ready to order?" She asked still blushing and everyone ordered their food and Jennie walked away still blushing. "Why does women still like gay men?" I asked mostly pointing towards the waitress so that Mary wouldn't think I was talking abut her. Mary was the one that answered with such pride "Well because what a women can't have is something that turns us on even more." She said and Isabella face palmed herself. "Well what do you think Isabella?" I tend to ask since she had a disapproval look on her face. "Well I think it is because it is 'forbidden' that girls and boys fantasize about the same sex being together." She said a bit to high and mighty but I understand the concept of what she was saying. "I see well okay but no fantasizing about me being with a other man!" I warned them since it is a bit weird having this convocation with my little sister and her friend. They both rolled their eyes when my phone started to ring and it was Ryo. "Hold on you two." I said before answering. "Hello?" I answered and felt my heart began to race since I'll be hearing Ryo's voice.
"Hey where you at Ryan? The party going to start in a hour." He said a bit excited since there will be girls coming over.
"Oh, I'll be there once the girls and I finish eating." I said a bit hurt but didn't let on since I don't wanna bother him. Isabella and Mary started to whisper into each others ears making me feel a bit more awkward in my convocation with him.
"Alright better hurry up. It's not going to be fun without you!" He said before hanging up the phone. I sighed and felt my heart once again beat like a mad man and looked at the girls. "Now tell me what you two were saying?" He smirked and they both looked at each other before saying so. "Well duh your in love silly" Isabella said and Mary giggle. I couldn't deny it so I just sighed loudly. "We knew it you love Ryo!" They nearly scream in excitement. "You two stop! Now or I will never ever take you out again!" I was getting embarrassed since I normally don't talk about this. Jenny walked back with our food in her hands. Placing them down one by one she then looked at me smiling. She handed me a folded up paper. She than leaned down to my ear and whispered into my ear. "Read it you'll understand then. I placed my number in there if you need a little help understanding who you are." Jenni than kissed my cheek and walked away. The girls watched in shocked as Jenni winked at them. "Let me see what she gave you!" Isabella held out her hand and I put in my pocket. "No she gave it to me not you silly one. Now hurry up and eat so we can make it back to the party." I said and felt my heart sink wondering what was in the paper she had given me. Once we all finished we headed to my place since Mary wanted to sleep over and Isabella can share her clothes with Mary. When I parked I had to on the street since the driveway was piled with cars. The girl got out and ran inside to change I simply followed behind to freshen up a bit. When I reached my room I took out the paper and began to read it. "Hi as you know I am Jenny but my real name is Jackson. I am near my twenties. I have overheard the girls you was with about you being gay. Do not fear it is a normal thing to happen. I am gay as well as you can tell I had a sex change. Here is my number please call if you have any questions. 678-278-9854 <3" I felt a bit shocked since Jenny..I mean Jackson looked like a women. There were a knock on my door. "Hey Ryan you in?" Ryo's voice called from the other side. "Yea uh...hold on!" I shouted and hid the paper opening the door smiling a bit flushed. "You okay you look a bit red." He said placing his hand on my cheek and forehead. "No..I am fine lets go down and party!" I tried to sound excited and he smiled so wide that my heart wouldn't stop beating. "Lets go bro." He said and lead me downstairs toward a group of girls blushing and trying to get our attention. Well Ryo already went in to see who he will fuck. I stood there and saw Isabella and Mary grinding on a couple of guys. Sighing I than looked for a girl to dance with but no luck since I really wasn't in the mood to do anything until Jenny walked into the door. I walked over to her and smiled holding out my hand so that I can lead her to where less people were standing. "Hey Jenny you was invited?" I asked since I didn't know that my brother was friends with her. I know I keep calling him a her since he do look like a female so I am going to call him one. "Yes Yuki invited me believe it or not." She giggled and I couldn't help but smile. "That's nice to know so how come you are not looking for him hmm?" I asked and I could see her face flare up with redness. "B..because you pulled me aside.." She tried to sound normal but you can her the excitement and disappointment in her voice. "Go look for him maybe sometime we can go to a gay bar and chill as friends." I said and she nodded before leaving my side to look for Yuki. I didn't feel anything for her since he wanted to become a she. I want a guy and that will be Ryo sadly we will never be together and it breaks my heart I have to get over this crush and find someone who will love me back. Isabella walked over to me noticing that I wasn't active in the party and hit my arm before pulling me along with her. "Ryan what's wrong? At least act before someone notices. Your lucky it was me Ryan." I know Isabella looks out for me but I just didn't care today.
I saw Isabella took Ryan away someplace else since she had a bit of anger in her eyes I followed them quietly wondering what it is she was mad about. I heard Isabelle talk to him first. "Ryan what's wrong? At least act before someone notices. Your lucky it was me Ryan." She said angrily and I could help but listen a bit more. "Look I know if I act like this people will find out I am gay but please stop watching Isabella." Ryan said and do to my overhearing I wish I hadn't since it is like losing a best friend over what gender he likes. I couldn't help myself and butted in glaring at Ryan and than at Isabella. It wasn't I was disgusted with him being gay since I know he is a cool guy but knowing he is hiding something from the whole family is a bit too much. "What is this you being gay shit Ryan?" I asked as Isabella stood in front of him as in to protect him. Ryan's face was slowly losing it's color, his face struck with fear, and he looked at if he were punched in the stomach. "Well?" I asked impatience hoping I heard it wrong. "Yes...I am..." He said softly but I heard every word he said. I just shook my head not really knowing what to say."So you had to tell your little sister of your dirty ass secret?!" I yelled upset that he will bring a young girl into his sick ass world. Ryan's face went straight pale and looked down as if he were about to cry. Isabella walked closer to me and slapped me hard as hell. "You are a big asshole. He didn't tell me! Me,myself and I found out on my own. I told him I didn't fucking care because I will always love him for who he is and for whatever reason of him liking you is out of my question zone!" She yelled also grabbing Ryan who stood there not saying a word and pulled him away from where we were. Ugh...why is it that he must be gay? Why do I have to lose a good friend because of he liking males...Wait does Tommy knows? I thought I should go tell him so I hunted him down looking to the side I can see Ryan pulling off Isabella and leaving the house. What the fuck? I walked over to Isabella where she was crying and Mary was also by her side. "What happen?" I asked and she started to hit me. "It's your fault all your fault!" She sobbed and Mary explained "Ryan left because he is afraid of what might happen." She said semi calmly. "Where is he going?" I asked a little worried but not much. "We don't know he just told Isabella to shut the fuck up and leave him alone." Mary said holding Isabella onto shoulder. "Why must of all people you find out?!" Isabella growled at me. "Well my bad! Does Tommy even knows of this!" I asked a bit to loudly and everyone looked at us. Tommy made his was to us and glared "Why is she crying?" He order and she looked at me shaking her head. "Ryan left pissed off and she's worried" I said holding his secret which made me feel a bit upset. "Oh where he go Isabella?" He asked her and she shook her head and he sighed. "Fuck! Everyone out now!" He yelled and everyone gathered their things a bit offended but left anyways. Yuki was talking to a new chick, Jake stood there wondering what was going on and Austin and Adam arrived looking stunned. "What's wrong Tommy?" They all said being as pissed as he was he took in a deep breath "Which one of you mother fuckers pissed off Ryan?" He said as the new chick looked at me. Who the hell is she. "Well sorry for saying something outside of all this but your brother Ryan needs all of your support." She said leaving after giving a kiss to Yuki. Tommy sighed watching the girl leave without explaining herself to either of us, but she must know that he is gay or she wouldn't have said so. Looking at Isabella once again I felt kinda bad about how I treated Ryan. My heart felt a bit heavy since it has happen.
I sped through out the highway looking for something I can do and decided to go to a gay teenage club since it has just open two weeks ago. I continue to speed until I reached the parking lot I slowed down to find one. Feeling terrible I got out of the car and walked in smiling as I seen some cute guys dancing. I walked over to the 'bar' to order a soda. "What will you have cutie?" The bartender asked kindly as his blue eyes shined in the neon lights. "Umm..Coke cola please." I answered as I felt some eyes on my back which made the hair on my neck stand. He nodded to the beat as he filled my glass handing it to me. I smiled my thanks and walked over to an empty table looking at the cute guys dancing. One of them grinned and walked over to me. His beautiful gray eye looked at me as he sat down. "What is such a cute guy doing here all alone in such a place like this?" He said with an Spanish accent. "I..I'm just getting away from the house since I am scared of what might happen." I said a bit awkward like. "Oh do you wish to tell me?" He asked looking at me kindly. I thought about it and nodded "It's because my brother friend found out that I am gay." I said sadly and he nodded his head as if he understood my feeling which might be true. "I'm Camden Black and you are?" He asked placing a hand on my shoulder. "Ryan Knight" I said and he looked at me stunned "Tommy's brother?" He asked and I nodded looking at him wondering how he knows my brother. "He use to be my friend when we was ten." He said smiling and I looked at him in awe. "Oh okay that's cool." Looking around I wasn't sure what to do. "Wanna dance?" He asked and I shook my head since I didn't know how to dance with another guy. "I don't know how." I said as he began to laugh and pulled me up rushing towards the dance floor. He wrapped his arms around my waist and began to move to the beat feeling his body pressed against mine. "Now move your hips along with your nice ass." He said as he grabbed my ass making me feel hot. I began to move my hips rubbing against his semi hard-on. I began to forget about my problems and danced my night away. Camden gripped my upper leg and making me moaned out loud "Camden...don't touch me there." I said not really caring but it didn't feel right. He grinned and bit my neck as we started to dance a bit more dirty. My phone began to ring but I didn't answer since I was finally enjoying myself. "Lets go to my place." He said into my ear nibbling it a little. "Sure..." I said not caring anymore since Ryo already hates me. Camden grabbed my hand leading my towards his car which made me blush and kissed my lips. "Get in." He said as he opened the passenger side but I shook my head pointing at my car. "Ah right well follow me alright?" He said and I nodded to stun to speak. My heart raced but not out of love but out of lust I guess as I ran over to my car I made my headlights wink so that he knows I am ready to follow. He did the same and drived away toward the next town. So he must have moved to be in the next town,but that's alright. My phone began to ring once again before I answered "Hello?" I asked noticing there was a silence on the other end. "Hello?" I said once more before the other line answered "Brother..where are you?" Isabella's voice sounded a bit shaky and sore. "Sorry Isabella I'll be back home tomorrow." I said before hanging up not wanting to hear her talk me out of it. Camden than turned to the left and pulled up to a gate which was for a large house. I slowed to a stop and parked behind him getting out "Is it here?" I asked as he walked over to me smiling. "Yes it is. My parents are away for now so we can you know...if you want." He said smiling pulling me closer to him kissing my neck. "S..stop let us go inside first." I said feeling my body grow hot. He grinned as he led me toward the gate pushing in the password before walking towards the unlocked door. "After you Ryan" He said bowing like a gentleman. "Haha very funny" I said walking into a beautiful home. He laughed and grabbed my hand leading me towards the stairs leading up to his room. Camden pushed open the door pushing me down onto the bed smiling lustfully "D..do you mind?" He said as he place his hand over my penis I shook my head since I didn't care "Go ahead" I said softly as he did rubbing and putting pressure on it making me hard. He grinned as he slipped out of his clothes and was about to strip me of mine. "You want me in you don't you?" He asked blushing and I couldn't help but nodded I was highly horny and wanted some since sometimes I would masturbate alone in my room fingering myself. He slowly began to suck my penis and soon went faster. I couldn't help but moan loudly glad that his parents was away. I was thinking of Ryo doing this to me and accidentally moaned out his name. Camden looked at me and stopped sucking me grinning "My my little one you shouldn't say such things or you'll be punished." He said lifting my hips and shoved his penis inside me. I felt a jolt of pain and cried out but was soon replaced with pleasure. It was about hour in a half when we grown tired and stopped having sex I felt a bit of guilt and sighed laying next to a guy I've just met. "Ryan...go out with me..Don't worry about your unrequited love. I can get you to love me soon..please date me" Camden begged wanting me to be with him and it felt good to have someone else with me. "okay" I whispered not really knowing what the outcome will be.
I stayed in the living room all night with Tommy wondering when Ryan will come home. I couldn't help but worry about him since he is my friend and we did everything together even with our age gap. "Damn it where is he!" Tommy growled you can see his worried lines showing and I felt even worse since I am the one that made him leave. We both heard the door knob turn and we both jumped up from the sofa. Ryan walked in with some guy smiling and laughing all close to each other. "Who the fuck is that?" I couldn't help but ask feeling a bit angry. "Oh..umm...what are you two doing up?" Ryan asked and looked at us with a bit a shock. The guy next to him whispered something into his ear making Ryan giggle. "We was up waiting for you to get home. Where the fuck were you? Not only that you are bring someone we don't know in our home?!" Tommy said a bit loud and sighed. "I am Camden Ryan's new friend" He said with a hint of lust in his voice as Ryan giggle slapping Camden arm. "Shut up..." He said and pulled Camden towards the stairs. "Ryan where are you going I'm not done here!" Tommy said as I stood speechless since I felt an unbelievable angry towards Camden. Ryan smiled at Tommy and ran upstairs with Camden whom was smiling like a idiot. Fuck...I bet Ryan brought his boyfriend! It has to be or they wouldn't be so lovey-dovey at all! Fuck why am I so frustrated!
I saw my little brother and some guy flirting which made me feel uneasy but maybe it was just all in my head and they was just being normal guys. I looked over at Ryo to see that he was angry and you can tell by looking at his mouth. If you don't you can never tell his feelings. "What's wrong Ryo?" I asked and he looked at me sighing shaking his head and went up stairs as Isabella came down stair ready for school. "Who's the hot guy Ryan brought in and all close to?" Isabella said with an thoughtful face. "Camden is all I know" I said getting my car keys and headed outside and she did the same. "Oh...Hey Tommy..what would you do if you have someone in your family that was homosexual?" She asked and I looked at her seeing that she was dead serious. "Well I guess I will have to accept you for who you are and make sure even a girl will not hurt you." I said since I was thinking she was trying to hint that she was. "Oh..no it's not me silly or anyone I was just wondering if it ever happened." She said a bit to quickly and I knew she was lying so If not her than Ryan. I will accept him for who he is since he is my little brother and I will protect him from harmful men. "Is it Ryan?" I asked and she looked at me as if her eyes will pop out. "H..W..no" She tired to think up of something but it didn't work out. "Isabella Knight tell me the truth now" I said and she made a gulping sound and sighed. "Yes he is." She admitted and I smiled "Thank you for telling me now out." I said once we arrived at her school.
I grabbed my chance to be with Camden since we are home alone with everyone out for work or the store. Camden grinned as he got closer to me kissing me lightly making me blush but my heart does not want it at all, but I kissed him deeply making each other a bit more hot not noticing my bedroom door open with Tommy staring. "R..Ryan all three of us need to speak. Let's go down to the living area." He said leaving without another word. Both Camden and I looked at each other and followed a bit scared wondering what my brother is going to do. He was sitting in the chair looking at us as if he were a father. I felt my body shake with fear and walked over to the sofa in front to Tommy. Camden sat next to me fear in his eyes and Tommy looking straight at us. "R..Ryan look I do not care that you are gay but do not have sex in this house. You know that all of us leave to an hotel to have sex. Do you know why? Yes you do because of your sister. She lives in this house just as well as all of us do." Tommy said kindly and looked at Camden with a sly grin "As for you I want you to take care of my brother. Don't just fuck him and leave. Hell nah if you do you'll have me up your ass you hear?" Tommy warned as Camden nodded holding my hand lightly. I couldn't help but laugh and Tommy sighed beyond the point. "I won't tell anyone until you are ready Ryan but for you Camden I do not approve of because one your age. You are nearly nineteen also because you well are a man whore." Tommy said honestly and I looked at Camden as he slowly removed his hand pulling my face closer to his. Placing his lips onto mine he slowly pulled away and looked at Tommy "I like your brother Tommy. Yes I am turning nineteen in two months but age doesn't matter. Also it is true I am a man whore but still your brother can change me. So pure and innocent with a loving laughter that makes your heart beat. Tommy I promise I'll take care of him" Camden said all at once and Ryo out of no where stormed in. "First off you dick Ryan is the most sweetest, caring, outgoing, and smartest person you'll ever meet and for you to be a man whore you'll need a lot of sex right? So no I do not approve of you are whatever that fuck you want! If so I can be a better man for Ryan than you'll ever be!" Ryo shouted and Tommy looked at both stunned just like me. I was shocked at what came out his mouth and also shocked at what Camden told my brother. So does this mean I am in a lover triangle?
This freaking Asian that had popped out of no where came to tell me he'll be a better man for my boyfriend. Shit he wish I am not giving up that quick. Shoot Ryan is really different and was kind enough to give me his virginity. So no I am not just going to back out because his brother and so fucking dick comes telling me no. "Ryan who do you choose?" I asked looking at him a bit pissed since he just sat there in shock just like his brother. "I...I don't know" He answered which pissed both the dude and I off. "You have to choose him or me!" Both of us said at the same time and I glared at him as he did the same. "Look why don't you two do some type of competition for Ryan? Whoever wins has him or whoever he picks." Tommy said butting in with an stupid remark. "I..I like that plan." Ryan said and I sighed "Fine but I'll win" I said and the guy just glared at me filled with anger. "Hell you will. I will win" He said and Ryan blushed deeply at his remark which hurt a little bit. I pulled Ryan closer to me and hugged him tightly before letting go and kissed his cheek. "Call me when the competition starts" I said because I know for damn sure I will not lose to some straight ass wanna be gay dude. Ryan grabbed my hand and lead me to the door kissing my cheek as well wishing me a safe drive home.
Ugh...Why must Ryan have to get some freaking dude when he likes me? Isn't that what fucking Isabella said that he liked me? So why choose some dude he barely knows! "Ryo..I didn't knew you was gay?" Tommy said looking at me strangely and I sighed since I didn't either. "I...guess I am bisexual" I answered and he nodded pointing to the chair in front of him and I knew he'll lecture me about dating his brother and much more. "You better not fucking lose! I do not want Camden to win" Tommy said softly so that Ryan can't hear. I nodded surprised by his action. Ryan than came closer to us and sat down next to me and feeling the heat of his body was not the most enduring thing to do since you just want to attack him. "Tommy..can you leave us two alone please?" Ryan said and Tommy looked at me winking and left. He than got up and sat where Tommy was looking at me with semi-pissed eyes. "What the fuck are you thinking?" He said and I looked at him shocked since he never talked to me this way before. He looked at waiting for an answer that I do not have. "I..I don't know..I just felt angry that he was all over you Ryan and I guess I was jealous." I said and Ryan's face brighten with red. "I see well Ryo I don't know what to say." He said getting up about to leave me but I wasn't having that so I grabbed his arm pulling on top of me. "Ryan please...please don't leave me" I whispered feeling a pain in my heart by his action. Ryan's body was tense near me but soon started to relax as he leaned into me. "Ry..Ryo but you hate gay! The way to you treated Chris by calling a fag!" Ryan said and I did but I am a stupid person for that "I'm sorry tomorrow I'll go and say sorry to him Kay?" I added and Ryan turned around facing me with full on glare. "You better" He said and I could hear the front door open. "What you two doing?" Yuki's voice came from behind us. "Uh..we was wrestling but I got tired and taking a break but not letting Ryan go because I know he'll run away." I made a quick answer as Ryan acted as if he wanted to get away. "Yuki! Help me here!" He said and I held tighter as Yuki laughed "Hell nah! He is hard to win against you are on you own little man" He said and walked to the kitchen. Ryan looking at me blushing as I couldn't help myself and kissed his lips softly. Feeling great I tried to deepen it but he pulled back pushing me away. "S..stop please" He said and got up blushing more deeply. "Ry..Ryan!" I cried out but he walked away shaking his head. When Tommy popped up smiling "Go get Isabella since you have so much free time." He said as Jake in through the door smiling like he just got laid. "Ryo if you don't wanna pick her up I'll go do it for you." He said but Tommy cleared his throat. Knowing that he wanted me to do it instead so I offered Jake to come with me.
Wh..what is going on here? First Camden now Ryo? I thought he disliked gay people? Ugh...I bet he's playing with me some type of sick joke. I could feel my body tense up with confusion and pain. I don't understand him at all why must he be so confusing! Laying in the bed my mind kept running back on how Ryo kissed me which made my heart race by the thought and how Camden kissed me but no reaction to my heart, but he is the one that understood my feelings and made me feel loved. Without knocking my brother walked in sitting on the end of the bed. "Ryan why haven't you told me about you being gay? You do know I have many friends that are gay. I do not judge them by who they fuck but by how they are. None of the guys care. Like Yuki he's bisexual did you not know?" He said trying to comfort me and I shook my head not knowing anything of what he said. "Silly little brother. Since both you and I are not allow to make the competition we'll have Isabella do it." Tommy said smiling and I couldn't help but smile back.
I was waiting outside for my brother to pick me up when he text me saying that Ryo is going to pick me up with Jake. Luckily Jake is going to be with us but still I disliked Ryo for hurting my brother and making him go to some stranger. When I saw Ryo pull up in his Jake's car I felt my heart beat fast since the one I like is Jake. Also Ryo was driving under the law since his driver license is took away. "Hey Isabella hurry up!" Jake said through the passenger side with a sexy smirk from his face. It melted my heart once I saw it but I know he is a very back player and I'm not down on getting my heart broken. "Whatever you jock!" I said getting in the back as I glared at Ryo and he smiled his heart melting smile. Looking away I couldn't help but have butterflies since he does have a wonderful smile. "Hey Isabella I need to talk to you when we get home alright?" Ryo said looking at me with pleading eyes. "Fine whatever" I said rolling my own eyes since I couldn't fight with that face no one can. That's why he is so easily forgiven. It was about thirty to thirty-five minutes when we got home. Ryo handed Jake the car keys and waited for me to get out. He grabbed my book-bag and looked at me "Come on hurry up!" He said tapping his shoes. I got out walking past him to the door when I notice Jake glaring at Ryo. What was this? Is he jealous? Nah it can't be. Once I was inside I felt Ryo grab my hand pulling my upstairs and threw me into his room. Which was surprisingly clean. "I want Ryan as mine and that fucking Camden already has him so there is a competition on where Ryan will have to choose me or Camden please Isabella make it where I can past fly high! I hate Camden already please don't let him date Ryan! I want him for myself. Yes I am sorry for not figuring out earlier but please Isabella!" Ryo said as tears build up in his eyes and I could see he was for real but I don't know. "No. Why because that wouldn't be fair on the other guy. If you truly know Ryan than you'll pass fly high no matter what right?" I answered but I know I didn't want that Camden dude to have my brother. "Isabella! Ugh....fine whatever if you say so" Ryo said looking out his window when there was a knock on his door. "Come in" He said when Jake walked in looking at him hatefully. "What she doing in your room bro?" He said and I knew than he was jealous of Ryo. "Why you mad bro? Not like I'm in here fucking her." Ryo said winking at me knowing that he also knew Jake was jealous. "Fuck you Ryo!" Jake said before grabbing my hand tightly dragging me along with him.
I was in the kitchen getting supper prepared for everyone since I was going to let out the big news of me being gay. I hope my brother was right about them not caring in any type of way. "Hey Ryan what happen last night?" Adam said walking in from the back door as always dropping his keys on the counter and leaned against it looking at me. "Just had to get away you know?" I answered and he nodded continuing to start at me. "Ryan...you seem...like your glowing?" He said confused and I looked at my arm thinking what the fuck? "No no not that type of glowing but glow of love." He said and I looked at him shocked. "W..what are you taking about? Psst hurry up and get cleaned! Supper is about done." I said as Yuki and Alex walked in laughing together and looked at me the same way Adam did. "Don't you dare say anything and sit down!" I mumbled as they held up their hands retreating to the dinning table. "Hey Ryan...about Jenni do..do you think I can get with her?" Yuki said looking at me and I smiled "Want her number?" I said and he looked at me a bit angry. "Why you have her number?" He asked and I couldn't help but laugh. "Chill I'm good she just a new friend of mine is all." I answered his question and he looked as if he was relieved. "Forget about him Ryan something up with you." Alex said with a smirk on his face and winked at me "You got laid huh?" He asked and I couldn't help but blush looking away. "Oh shit with who!" They both asked at the same time. "No I...didn't now shut up!" I yelled at them both and they both started to laugh saying that's it alright to talk about it and junk like that. "Whatever get everyone down here it's done" I said in response and sighed as I set the plates for everyone. Slowly one by one that plates were placed at everyone's seat and yet no one was down yet. "Alex! Adam! Ryo! Tommy! Jake! Isabella! Yuki! Down here now!" I shouted and I could hear the footsteps of everyone running down since they disliked me mad when they are late for supper. Once everyone was in their seats I sat down as well looking at everyone. "First let me tell you all something. If you dislike it leave the table and you won't eat until everyone that stay finish eating." I said and they all made a gulping sound which made me feel at power. "I am gay and I'm sorry for hiding it for some long. The first to know was Isabella and than Ryo found out by mistake. Than today Tommy found out in a wrong way but he did. So I thought I might as well tell you all now." I said and they all looked at me with blank faces. "Are you for real?" Alex asked me looking at Yuki and Adam. "Why you telling us last?" Yuki asked and the other two nodding in agreement and laughing. "Oh...scared I guess" I answered and they just rolled their eyes and began to eat. Ryo looking at me and cleared his throat. "I wanna say...I like Ryan" and everyone's mouth dropped opened. "Wh..what" The three said as Tommy and Isabella laughed at their reaction. "Yes I know Ryan" He said again which made me blush and the three looked at me again. "Is he the one you lost your virginity to?" Yuki asked and I blushed shaking my head. "No" I answered seeing Ryo eyes locked on me. "Okay! Let's change what we are talking about. I don't not wish to know about your sex lives." Isabella broke the tension.
After supper Ryan tried to avoid me and it hurt deeply but I was going to have him spill if Camden was the one that stole his virginity from me. It was around eight o'clock pm when Ryan was just sitting in front of the t.v. as if he had nothing to tell me. I sat beside him close enough if he were to escape I can grab him. "Ryan...Did you fuck with Camden?" I asked straight out looking at him I can see his body tense up. "Yes" He said looking away from me with his shaking voice. "I see" I said feeling a ball of sadness take over me but was soon thrown aside with an ocean which felt like fire building up inside me. I know that I'm jealous of Camden. "I'm sorry Ryo.." He began but I shook my head grabbing his hand pulling him off the couch with me heading up to my bedroom. "R..Ryo let go" He said as I tossed him to my bed and locked the door. Walking over to him I could hear myself yelling not to do anything bad ,but my anger and jealously took over. "I'm going to clean your body Ryan..Don't worry I'll be gentle" I said as he shook his head with tears falling from his eyes. I didn't care though as I reached him he began to beg me to stop. My hand ran up and down his side his face turning bright red, his breath quicken and his pleading turned to moans. As I bent down to kiss him his eyes looked at me with full happiness and smiled within our kiss. My lips escaped his mouth down to his neck, to his collarbone as I began to remove his shirt there was a knock on the door. "Ryo..let my brother out" Tommy's voice broke our building heat and I looked at Ryan smiling. We both began to laugh as he knocked once again. "Ryan out now...why the fuck is the door lock!" He growled and I felt like telling him we know he fuck his girl but I didn't as I got up to unlock the door he fallen inside. "Ryo...no sex with my brother" He said leaving with the door open and I looked at Ryan when he began to laugh. To see Ryan happy made me feel as if I were melting. Sadly I felt as if I am the most stupidest person in the world for being late on how I feel about Ryan and to realize when he found someone other than me. To be honest I am scared to date a guy since I've never touched or loved one before. Ryan walked up to me kissing my neck before he left and I knew it never hurts to try.
Leaving Ryo alone in his room was the up most hardest thing to do but I didn't care since he was the one that tried to force me into sex...even though I began to enjoy it. My goodness I am so shameless everyone must have heard me. "Ryan come to my room!" Isabella said at her door with Jake beside her. I shrugged and walked over to her looking at how Jake's eyes was undressing her. "Yeah?" I asked and she smiled widely. "About the competition I want Camden and Ryo to take two quizzes about you and two sports related actives to see who wins first. The final round is to see who has your heart the most." She said already have planned out the competition. "So that means write a two quizzes of whatever you wish and the answer sheet so I can see if they are correct or not." She said as I nodded since it made perfect since. "Ryan this type of thing is really hard to do so just think with your heart not your brain" Jake said calmly looking at me with sorrowful eyes and Isabella patted his arm with love in her eyes. I knew than they both had the same feelings since they love one another.
Damn it Ryan I thought you would choose me over some guy that hurt your feelings! Ugh....why must I have these stupid feelings for some guy I just met the day before? "Camden dear why are you making so many expression?" My mother asked with a blank look on her face and my father nodding wondering as well. "Sorry mother...I am a bit frustrated right now." I answered knowing I will be lecture about it. I can sense my father tense up and set his silverware down, clearing his throat. "Son...what have I told you about speaking nonsense at the table?" His voice was a bit husky and my mother patted his arm knowing that my father and I do not get along. "Well father maybe if you take the time to care about me than I might not talk nonsense!" I raised my voice and my mother sighed since it wasn't going to stop anytime soon. "Watch your mouth son. You are far to old for this stupid child act. Plus once you turn straight than I will pay more attention." He said a bit hateful and my mother for the first time took part in it. "Now dear that was highly wrong of you. Don't you dare speak to my son like that!" She growled his face went pale since it was rare for my mother to get mad. "As for you Camden I do not care for whatever gender you like but I do not wish for you to be rude to your father. Now tell me about your problems do not mind your father." She said glaring at him knowing that he was about to say something smart. "Yes mother I will not disrespect him anymore" I said dully as I continued on to tell her of my love life for the first time. "Well I like a guy named Ryan but it is somewhat of a love triangle with his first love whom rejected him but now wants him because both him and I are dating. It hurts because I know how it feels to want your first love to want you and to have that come true makes anyone confused. Mother I don't know what to do...I don't want to lose him to a jerk..." I said as my voice shook. My mother's face lighten up smiling with a sympathetic expression "Son don't give up..If you really care for this boy than you must believe in yourself first. Like your father was my second love and his best friend was my first. Justin gotten angry at us dating because he liked me as well but I already gave up on him two weeks into dating your father. So if this boy was rejected for at least a week than you may have a chance." She said but sadly it was only for half a day he was rejected and is now getting the love he needs from Ryo. "Camden as your father I do say fight for your lover" He said blushing and looking away from me. Sadly I know my father cares for me but sometimes I wish he was more open about it. My mother giggled and tapped the table "Let us eat again and go to bed for rest" She said winking at my father which made my stomach crawl but thought it'll be a good chance to call Ryan since I haven't talked to him all day.
It took thirty minutes for me to finish eating and to wash my plate since I really didn't like the maids to do it. I know it is their job but I just don't feel right for them to do it since I'm the one to dirty it. Happily I went upstairs to my bedroom laying on the bed where Ryan and I made love with the memories flashing back I felt my heart beat faster and stronger than before. Either way I must calm down so that I won't sound odd to Ryan. Dialing his number I thought of what to say and how to say it when he began to ring it was only four rings before he answered. "Hello?" His sweet yet lustful voice rattled my body. "Hey Ryan how are you today?" I asked trying to keep calm but it wasn't helping any. "Good just a bit tried. How about you? What you doing?" He asked as I heard his bed squeak from under him. "I'm just laying down waiting for when we can see each other again." I said noticing a small giggle leave his lips made me realize I said something right. "What...It's true" I said not even bothering to answer on how my day was. "I know. I was thinking next Friday come over for the competition." He said as my heart stung knowing I only have a week to probably make him mine. "Alright just let me know what time I should come over and I'll be there but to let you know I am going to visit all this week to show you what type of person I am. I feel like I truly care for you. Even though we only knew each other for a short period of time but I want to know you and you know me" I told him truthfully I know I may sound a bit odd or creepy but it is my true feelings. "Oh...um..Okay that should be fine haha." He laughed playfully with a hint of shyness. "Okay well be ready by seven in the morning! Cause we are going on the date." I said with to much excitement and he just laughed saying okay.
Just hearing Camden being filled with joy which made my heart race but than ache at the same time since I feel as if I growing to like two people at once. "Ryan! Come help me!" Isabella's screamed loudly with fear with a hint of anger in her voice. I sighed and told Camden that I will call him back. I walked over to her room with amusement in my eyes seeing that there was a spider over her bed. "Kill it! Kill it!" She whined as she grabbed onto me. "How am I going to kill it if your holding your me." I asked looking at her which was quite sad since she is a bit taller than I am. "Okay! now go kill it!" She cried letting me go slightly pushing me to the bed. Laughing I went ahead and killed it with my shoe. With a sigh of relieve behind me she said her thanks when I was about to walk out. "Hey Isabella are you and Jake well...getting close?" I asked her since I know that in my mind they seem to be fairly close and it scares me. "N..no why?" She lied. I can tell when she lies since her nose turns light pink and her eyes slightly twitch. I looked at her as if I were saying yeah right "Isabella don't lie to me. You are easy to read. So let's sit and tell me about the two of you." I said kindly wishing that they are to be just best friends since I know Jake is a bit of a player and I don't want her to get hurt. "Ryan, I'm sorry I like him a lot even though he is so much older than me!" She spilled out tears building up, body shaking, her voice shook "Please don't tell him! Please! I don't want to lose the closeness we have please!" She cried out loud not wanting Jake to find out or anyone else. "Calm down Isabella I am not going to say anything, but I do think he likes you back. As long the law doesn't find out it is fine for you two to date...just no sex!" I said firmly since I really don't like the idea, but who can go against her tears? "B..But he won't love me back!" She cried even more not noticing that I said he might like her back. With a knock on the door Jake stood their glaring at us "Who won't love you back? Tell me who made you cry I'll beat his ass." He said filled with anger looking at Isabella. "How can you beat yourself up Jake?" I said pushing past him knowing the two both loved each other. "Wh.." Was all I heard before I was to far to hear the rest.
"Isabella what is he talking about?" Jake said as he slowly calmed down and I looked at him shaking with fear and excitement. "I..i like you Jake! I really do..." I said softly seeing him nod his head. I knew that expression from his past confessions, I knew he was going to reject me. "I don't know what to say Isabella." Jake said looking as if he is about to say sorry, my heart started to break right then and there. "I will like to think about it before I take any action." Jake said before looking away. I feel as if my body is covered in ice, my heart feels as if it went numb. It is the first time I ever liked someone like that and now it is all over. "O...okay" I said looking at the floor trying not to cry since it is just a crush but still it hurts. "I should get going...see you later?" He semi asked me and left my room leaving me alone filled with self-pity. Sitting on my floor I cried quietly and wished Ryan never said anything about me liking Jake. "Why...why...why?" I chanted to myself knowing that we'll never be the same. *I can't believe Isabella likes me! A player who doesn't care for anyone, the girl I truly like, likes me back! How stupid of me to react like that, am I ten years old!? "Hey Jake do you mind helping me real quick?" Yuki asked holding up two shirts that both looked too tight for him but either way I nodded. "Yeah I don't mind. What is it?" I asked already knowing the answer which is to help him with the shirts. "Which do you think is better? The red and black one or the black long sleeve and the white vest?" He asked holding both up. "I like the one with the vest and some blackish-white jeans." I said and he nodded agreeing with me closing the door behind him. I just shook my head going to my room, laying on the bed just to lay there and think about everything that has happen today. "Yo Jake there's a party going on! Get up what are you doing?!" Tommy came in excited but I sighed getting up slowly "Hey Tommy...how will you feel if I like your sister?" I said looking at Tommy closely wondering what he was thinking and smiled lightly. "Well?" I asked as Tommy looked at me widely. "Well I have nothing to say really cause I can tell but I swear if you ever hurt her feelings or break her heart. We are no longer friends. Same with Ryo." Tommy said leaving my side. *Laying on my bed still hurt that Jake didn't even like me and probably left with my brother to a party. "Ugh! I am so stupid for thinking a play boy would ever like a girl like me!" I cried out as there was a knock on me door and Jake walked in with a grin walking over to me and pulled me up with a long passionate kiss. As we finish our kiss Jake whispered into my ear about how sorry he was and that he really does love me, and that he asked Tommy for permission.
I walked down to the living room where Ryo was laying on the sofa and sat up hurriedly looking at me with a wide smile. "Hey Ryan want to hang out today?" He said with such sweetness in his voice but I shook my head since I wanted to see Camden today. God I am so confused every time I see Ryo my heart beats but when I think of Camden nothing happens it..is just my mind keeps thinking of him. "Oh? Why not?" He said and I went over to him sitting on his lap. "I going out for a bit." I answered not really wanting him to know where I was going. "Do you want me to come with?" He asked as he tighten his grip on me. Blushing I pulled away looking at him directly "No, It's alright.." I said leaning down to kiss him softly. "I will be back" I said and left knowing that I must tell Camden that I love Ryo. I can't keep leading him on like this. As I got into my car I headed towards his house with tears falling down knowing that it would break his heart. Pulling up to the drive way I stopped at the gate and rang the gate bell awaiting for someone to answer. "Who is it?" A women voice came to life. "Um...Ryan." I said wondering if it was his mother. "Oh...One moment!" She said excited and the gates popped open. "Come on up" She said and I walked up the rest of the drive way up to the door. As I stepped up to the door it opened with a beautiful women behind it. "You are looking for Camden right? He is asleep in the room. Do you need help getting there?" She asked kindly "No, it's alright miss." I said heading to the room that Camden own. Knocking first there was no reply so I walked in anyway. I saw him laying in the bed sound asleep. Walking over to him I sat in the bed tapping him softly. "Nhhh..." He groaned which was cute and he sat up slowly "What the..." he said blushing deeply "what are you doing here....I am not even dressed!" He blushed even brighter "I'm sorry for coming unnoticed but I have to cancel the competition...because it is true I only love Ryo." I said as a single tear fell from my eye. "I see...come here Ryan" He said softly pulling me close. "It's okay...because you need to follow your heart." He said kindly but his voice cracked as he spoke. "Ryan don't worry about it.." He whispered and tighten his grip. I couldn't help but cry because I know he would break down once I leave. "Camden come over anytime you want." I said feeling his hand shake. "I would...but can you go for now?" He said softly pushing me away. I nodded leaving his room and home walking to my car. A sigh of relief I headed home to my Ryo.
Tommy told me that there was a party going on but I refused since I was waiting for Ryan to return home. I wasn't for sure why I changed my sexuality so quickly but the way he looks and acts it makes me happy. Not only that just the thought of Camden coming into Ryan's live and was wanting to take him from me...I just couldn't let that happen. I was beginning to get lost in thought when I felt someones hand on my forehead. "Ryo? Are you not feeling well?" Ryan asked with a worried look on his face. "Yeah..I'm fine" I said as sniffed the air I smelt something different. "Hey Ryan..did you get a new cologne?" I asked but it smells just like Camden when he first came here. "Or..did you meet up with Camden?" I asked feeling myself glare at Ryan. "Yes, I have met him today..but only to tell him that I love you!" Ryan said with a serous face but how am I to know that? He could be lying for all I know. "Well you made a mistake...I was just jerking with you." I said and regretted it once I saw tears fall down his eyes. "Ry..Ryan hey don't cry." I whispered but he pulled his hand back and nodded. "Sorry for bothering you..." He said and left the house again. Where was he going? To Camden's place? What the hell is wrong with me?
How can I be so stupid to fall for something as that? Of course he wouldn't like a guy...he been straight his whole life! Damn it, Why do I have to be so stupid...but all I could do was walk away. I'm not going to tell Tommy since he'll kick him out and I don't want that on him. I'll just find a place of my own and worry about everything else later...or move in with my parents. As I went down the road I got a phone call but I didn't answer since I wasn't in the mood too. Where am I going to go? There was no where I could go right now..Fuck! I wasn't for sure where to go but I went to my aunts house that wasn't to far from home. I walked up to the door and knocked like I always have. "Coming Ryan one moment!" My aunt yelled like always and a few moments went by before she opened the door. "Ryan dear...what's wrong?" She gasped since she knew I don't always cry in front of others. "What do I do Auntie...He played me" I whined and she sighed waving me inside. She led me to the living area with a confused facial expression. "My goodness child. Since when have you ever cried over a lover?" Auntie said with a hint of anger. "Auntie...he is special though!" I cried feeling anger, sadness, and pity. "Ryan...you shouldn't give up on him. I've been by your side since day one. Yes, I understand it is hard to have the same sex relationship but that doesn't mean anything you have to work harder for it that is all." She said looking at the photo of her and her wife. "Even thought my sister, your mother, doesn't approve of me and Vivian" She added looking at me wanting to know me replies. "Auntie I don't want to give up on him. I chose Ryo over a pure gay guy, because I loved him..and when I told him he told me he was joking around with me." I explained whimpering with heartache. "Oh sweetie, he might have been jealous." She said giggling but a evil smirk appeared on her face "What's with that look" I asked feeling a strange aura. "We'll just have to test him...come live with me for a while and see if he'll come after you." She growled enjoying this drama. "Are you sure Auntie?" I asked and she just grinned "Go pack your stuff as I prepare the guest room." I just sighed as I left the house to go back to my own. "My goodness....what am I getting myself into?" I moaned in frustration. Once I pulled up the drive way I saw Ryo waiting on the front steps. I must stay strong. I repeated in my mind as I walked up to the door. "Ryan...Wait" He said as he grabbed my arm, pissed I pulled away glaring at him "Fuck off." I said rushing into the house, to my bedroom and locked the door until I had my stuff packed into a suitcase. "Ryan!...Please hear me out!" Ryo said as he banged on my door but I didn't pay any mind to him. Sighing I picked up my suitcase and opened the door to see a stunned Ryo at the door with a hurt expression. "Ryan don't go" His voice cracked but I couldn't help by laughing at him for acting as if he cared about me which he didn't. "You know Ryo...I hoped you enjoyed playing with my heart you ass." I said pushing past him. Rushing to my car with silent tears escaping my eyes as I went to my aunts house. The same I went up to the door but without knocking this time I walked in heading upstairs. "Auntie, are you sure Ryo will chase after me?" I asked worried but all she did was laugh. "Yes, I am sure since Ryo is a stubborn kid. Did he try to stop you?" She asked with a expression which said she already knew the answer. "Yes." I admitted anyway. "Sweetie he'll come then....oh don't forget to inform your brother." She chuckled with excitement and rushed out the room when she heard Vivian call out her name. What am I to do? How can she say it is jealousy? Do people normally do that when their jealous? What am I going to tell my brother? Ah fuck! This is giving me a headache. "Ryan! Come down here!" Vivian cried out with excitement I moaned out with fear because she normally dressed me up in a girlie manner. "Coming!" I called out as I slowly made my way down to the living area. Where I saw the vary tall and yet elegant woman sitting in the sofa with a large grin. "Oh my Ryan look at how you grow." Vivian said looking at me with wickedness. "Go put this on!" She growled handing me a bag from Rue21 "But Vivian! that isn't right" I pouted knowing that I'll lose the battle I went ahead and changed into the short skin-tight dress with matching pair of high heels. I walked back to where my aunt and Vivian was as I heard them giggle in enjoyment...God am I making the right choose to stay here for a while? I asked in fear of becoming there personal doll.
I was sitting on my bed with the laptop as I stalked Camden's Facebook page wondering if he'll post anything about being with Ryan. It was about twenty-minutes before he posted about going to the mall to cool his head. Feeling my body build up the stress and anger along side jealousy I thought it would be best to catch Ryan in the act with Camden.
As I arrived at the mall I searched around for Camden when I walked past the American Eagle store. I stopped dead in my tracks and turned around seeing that Camden was in there talking with some other guy and not my Ryan. "What the fuck?" I thought to myself and walked in because my anger got a hold of me. I walked up behind him and made an attacked that sent Camden to the ground but soon was revived on his feet glaring at me. "Where the fuck is Ryan?" I yelled and turned to the guy that Camden was flirting with. "And this guy is dating him! Get outta here!" I growled and he did like a white bunny frighten by a big bad wolf. But soon I felt a blow to my head as my back was turned to Camden, whom was on top of me at the moment. "What do you mean! He left me for your dumb ass..." He hissed as he slammed my face with his fist. It took all my strength to push him off. "He...was telling the truth?" I asked as if I were in a daze "But what did you do to him Ryo?" Camden said as he lifted me off the ground by a inch with fury not other wishes to see. "He..he left" I muttered as I felt his hot fist in my face once again. "You know what Ryo? He loved you because when I was fucked him the night you rejected him....he called out your name!" Camden yelled as he left me there feeling no other than a ass monkey. The security came to escort me out of the mall telling me how lucky I was for not getting arrested. As always it is me who screw things up, not Ryan he always so sweet and innocent. "Now get out of here kid and find your lover." The security guard said as he walked back into the mall shaking his head. The by-standers must have explain it to him that I was fighting over a boy...not any boy though.
I finally got out of having to try on anymore outfits that my aunt and Vivian wanted me to wear by saying I wasn't in the mood. It was true though since I couldn't get Ryo out of my mind. "Don't forget to tell your brother!" My aunt yelled which always sounded so sweet. That's right I have to tell him where I am at. I went up to the guest room where I'll be staying for a week or two because I don't think that I could last much longer. "Hello?" A familiar deep voice ask with a hint of worry since I don't call while he is at work. "Hey Tommy, I'll be staying at auntie's house for a couple of weeks" I said and all I can here in the background was a light gasp. "The women who dressed you up as a girl until you turned ten and began to dress you as a porcelain doll?" Tommy asked as he said my embarrassing moments out loud. "Yes, that women" I laughed knowing my brother will wonder why I was. "Did you have a lover quarrel with Ryo?" He asked instead sounding as if what he said was true. "W..what do you mean...noo!" I lied and he knew it "Ryan...I don't mind you two having a lovers fight but if he hurts you let me know." Tommy said caring about me and Ryo's future together...but what future. "Tommy...Does Ryo get jealous?" I asked and heard my brother laugh loudly "Hell yeah...man he is the most possessive guy I ever met." He said before his boss told him get hung up. "Talk to you later Ryan...remember he say awful things when he is mad." Tommy said before hanging up on me without letting my wish him a goodbye.
"Tommy, Is something the matter with your family?" My boss asked me smiling since he knew my parents wasn't around. It's a touchy subject for me since I have so much responsibility on me. I'm trying to be a good role model for my brother and sister since my father or mother wasn't involved. "No everything is fine. Just my brother love life is endanger." I laughed it off knowing I can get Ryo to tell me about what happen. "Oh...young love" He laughed as he walked out of the lobby. If you was wondering I work in a body shop for cars. "Tom help me out here with the oil" Jessie pleaded for my help since he didn't really know much about cars. "Alright!"
Later on in the day I walked through the front door to see a drunkard Ryo on the sofa which made my job a bit easier. "Ryo, My dear dear friend....why is it my brother staying at my auntie's house?" I asked sitting next to him looking at him kindly so he'll spill. "I...I told him something horrible, which was I was jerking with him...but He came back home smelling like Camden...I...I thought he was cheating on me with him" He cried as real tears fell. "I see, you do know you are stupid for telling my brother something like that because you were jealous. Go find him and bring him home tonight!
" I said growling lightly with my eyes narrowing. "Yes sir!" He said getting up wobbling to the door. Good, If Ryan see how drunk Ryo is he can't help but forgive him. Ryan is a softie to sad drunks just like my father, who always sobbed to my brother. My phone began to ring when I heard a familiar voice call out my name. "Tommy?" My mother's angelic voice sound peaceful "Mother?" I felt my heart tighten with mix feelings. "Hey sweetie, I was just calling to let you know that we'll be home to visit in...Honey when are we leaving?! (I heard my mother call out to my father)'Two weeks!' We'll come visit in two weeks! Love you, how's Ryan? Did he find a girlfriend?" She asked giggling "No not yet mother" I lied since I didn't know how to explain to her that he is gay. "Bye son take care of your brother and sister" as she hung up on me before I could wish her well. I really do hope Ryo brings Ryan back home for me to explain our parents plan to visit.
My mind was in a haze while I stumbled to Ryan's aunt's house. She is such a sweet women who just happens to make Ryan dress as a female. My Ryan whom is so kind enough not to reject her offer. That's right he wasn't mine anymore because I screwed up! What is there for me to do? Ryan must hate me right now and Tommy wants me to bring him home as if our fight isn't big. I heard some people in the background calling me stupid and should get my drunk ass home, but I can't! I want to feel Ryan in my arms once again. It took me longer to reach her home since I was slowly wobbling over. "Oh my...Ryo what kind of shape are you in?!" Vivian said as she answered the door. "Ryan is here right? Let me see him" I said almost like a puppy whimpering for it's master to return home. "Oh yes please come in dear." She said moving to the side just enough to allow me in. "Are you drunk?" Vivian asked as her nose shrunk up with disgust. "Yeah" I said honestly and she nodded accepting my answer. "He is upstairs getting ready for bed" Vivian said as I stumbled up the stairs wondering what Ryan was going to think of me being drunk! I opened the only door that was closed seeing Ryan sit on the bed facing the window. "Ryan..come back home" I whispered noticing him turn around quickly. "Please leave." He said wiping his tears that continued to flow. I wobbled over to Ryan as he looked away trying to hide his face but nothing worked. "I love you Ryan.." I said as I plopped on the ground looking up at him pouting. "Ryo are you drunk?" He asked me which was nice of him to notice. Nodding without saying a word he patted my head. "Why did you tell me something as such?" Ryan asked all of the sudden. "I..because I was jealous." I said looking up at him "Because you smelled like another man, because you didn't realize that going to out to meet another guy without telling me wasn't important." I said tears falling from my own eyes. "Don't make this out to be me in the fault! I just went to tell him I LOVED YOU!" He yelled as the last part became a scream. "I'm sorry Ryan! How am I to feel? I'm scared that Camden could steal you from me! He is taller, better built and hotter than I" Feeling my face burn with embarrassment. "Ryo, you just don't get it! I chose you OVER him!" Ryan said as he stood up from the bed "Please leave" Was the last thing he said before exiting the room. A few minutes later Rosalyn, Ryan's aunt, walked in smiling. "Ryo, what have you gotten yourself into? Ryan may be softhearted but he isn't going to run back into your arms like that." She said in a soothing way that made me what to listen to her. "What can I do?" I asked feeling hopeless and she went to a desk sitting in the chair beside it. "Look, Ryan is testing you to see how much you care. It is a good thing you came here drunk since the drunkard always tells the truth. Now is for the hardest part. Showing him you truly care." Her soothing voice became so caring. "Rosalyn, I understand that I must prove myself, but he won't even take the time to listen to me." Whimpering she got up and grabbed my jaw tightly. "Now you listen here boy! What you are not getting through your thick fucking skull" She tighten her grip "Is that Ryan is waiting for you to take action!" She glared at me as if I said something about her child. "I am not going to say this again. So listen closely. The quickest way to win someone's heart back is to take them on a romantic date and bring them back home slowly seducing them to submission." Rosalyn said as if she were possessed by a demon. I nodded and then that charming smiled appeared on her face once more "Good. I'll tell Ryan to come back up here and have you two talk a little more." She giggled and leaped out the room.
My aunt told me that the way I left things wasn't a good start and should go speak with him to clear stuff up. I knew that if I didn't listen to her she'll turn all bad ass on me and I wasn't going to have that. I ran upstairs to the drunken Ryo to see him pale as a ghost. Ryo must have not listen to her since she does have a 'gangster' side to her. "Ryo, stop sitting like that. At least sit on the chair." I said from the bed which I had full control over. He nodded as he got up to sit in the chair starting at me with care and sadness. Was he for real? Did he truly love me? People being drunk normally tells the truth, and knowing Ryo he says a lot of shit. "Ryan, go on a date with me." He said out of nowhere with a small hope of a smile. Trust me, no one and I mean no one can resist his smile. Like one time in school my brother told me how Ryo got out of trouble by smiling that the teacher asking her to forgive him. Which she did. "Alright but under one rule. No touching." I said trying to see if he'll agree to it and to my surprise he did. "But first please come back with me" He said as a bigger smile was pulled onto his face. Heart struck I nodded slowly waling over to my suitcase picking it up. I didn't face Ryo since I knew that my face was redden. "Ryan I love you" He said over and over again. I felt warm inside but I just couldn't believe him just yet. I waved my aunts goodbye and they wished us well. "We are not walking Ryo. Get in the car" I said and he did so. We didn't talk the rest of the way home but I felt Ryo eyes on me the whole time which made me shiver with excitement. "Ryan I love you" He said before getting out the car heading over to my side and getting my suitcase. It was around two in the morning when we arrive to the house where Tommy sat up since the living room lights were on. As we entered the room Tommy's face lit up like a Christmas tree. "Ryan I thought you was going to stay at Auntie's house." He said surprised to see me return so easily. Tommy looked at us carefully before grinning any bigger. "I see you both made up!" He smiled before it faded "We need to talk alone Ryan..Ryo you should get some rest anyway." He added and Ryo looked at us strangely before heading upstairs with my suitcase. "What's wrong?" I asked before sitting down looking at my hesitating brother. "Mom called..." He began swallowing hard before he began "and she said that they will be here in two weeks..but knowing them they'll come here earlier to see if the house is a mess and...and if there is anything suspicious." Tommy said as his face went pale. "What are we going to tell mom and dad? You know about you being gay? I want you to live a life with no regrets nor lies." he said looking at me kindly and I shook my head "No, mom will freak out and dad will probably kill me!" I said in disbelief that my brother wanted to tell my parents. "Ryan, maybe mom will accept you since you are her son, her child that is hard to hate." He grinned maybe he was right. Maybe she'll accept me and soon come to accept her sister. "Alright, but you have to be by my side no matter what!" I warned before heading upstairs to my room seeing Ryo fast asleep on my bed hugging a piece of my clothing.
Sophia(Ryan's mother) P.O.V-
"Sweetheart? What's wrong?" My husband, Aaron, touched my shoulder lightly. I slid my small hand into his. "Dear, I think Tommy is hiding something from us." I admitted before turning to look at him. "He...sounded like he was upset and in a rush to hung up when I mention Ryan." Sighing I turned fully around with worry. "Oh sweetheart. There isn't anything you should worry about. Tommy is a strong young boy and will be a wonderful father. I, mean look at him he handled two teenage children just fine." He tried to reassure me. "But Aaron, I know Tommy isn't the type to let others know his problems!" I stressed which seem to not allow my husband understand. "You worry to much. We'll be there sometime in the next two weeks." Aaron said calmly since that is all he can do. Stay calm. "No, We are going home the day after tomorrow!" I yelled flopping down on the bed. It has been three years since I last seen my children. "Good night Sophia" He whispered and laid beside me.
I woke up beside Ryo since last night he took over my bed and didn't want to sleep in his. "Ryan..." My sister said as she walked in looking at me with a expression that shouldn't be on her face. "Oh?" A wide grin appeared on her face "Did you have fun?" She asked trying to hold back a laugh. "Not funny Isabella. We did nothing" I said blushing wishing we had. "Oh come on Ryan don't deny what we had last night." Ryo's sheepish voice said out of nowhere. "Oh hush we did nothing!" I whined but Isabella giggled out loud. "We'll anyway Tommy said get down now." She said walking away from us. When we could hear her footsteps on the stairs Ryo crawled on top of me. "Ryan I love you." He said it over and over again. "Get. Off. Of. Me.!" I said trying to breath but he didn't laughing at me. "Ryan let's get ready and go on a date" He whispered into my ear, the hot breath tickling me. "Fine, just get off of me Ryo." I said feeling my body craving his touch. Ryo was about to get up but changed his mind kissing me before leaving in a rush. "Ryo!" I groaned but got up heading to the living area where I found my brother and Isabella awaiting me. "What's wrong?" I asked feeling a strong tension. "Mother and father are coming home tomorrow...later today we have to get the guest room cleaned up for them." Tommy said since it use to be his old room but once they moved out he took over the master. "Alright but I have a date with Ryo...I couldn't say no to him it is his damn smiles." I said and they both looked at me nodding while holding there laugh. I wonder what was funny and then felt arms wrapped around me. "Well I am glad you like my smile." Ryo chimed happily and his lips pecking my neck over and over.
I was waiting in the car at the gas station while the gas pumped. I looked back seeing Ryo tapping the beat of the music on the car smiling since he got to take me out. I can help but feel as if he took something from me. "Ryan do you like what you see?" Ryo asked with a sexy smirk. Blushing I turned back to the front of the car since he said something as such out loud. "Aye don't turn away from me!" He sounded as if he were pouting. Silly Ryo that is for kids. Oh god what am I thinking. I should be mad at him! Not run back to him like a little child. "Hurry up! or I am walking home!" I yelled and he laughed saying that it needs to reach to twenty first.
My mind was racing like the bunny on Alice and the wonderland. I felt like my world was crashing down because of my parents coming back home. Hate. That is the word I would describe how I feel about my parents. How can they leave us all alone? Image how we felt when it was parent/teacher conference? We always got made fun of because of it....because we didn't have parents. "Isabella! Hellooo?" Jake waved his hand in front of my face bring me back to the real world. "Yeah?" I leaned into his warm body feeling my mind calm down. "Look your parents are just going to stay for what...a couple of days settle down love. I know it hurts because they abandon you guys." Jake began pecking my forehead "You have me and when we get older maybe we will have kids and learn from their mistakes." He said blushing deeply. So he is planing a future with me. "I know but still my parents think they can just walk back into our life like nothing happened!" I pouted holding back my tears. I. Hate. Them.
I watched the clock every movement it made stressing at the thought of our parents coming back to visit. What is they disliked how the house was? What if they think I am unsuited to be a good role model for my brother and sister. Will they take them away? "Yo Tommy what's up with your parents coming back out of no where?" Yuki asked plopping beside me on the sofa. "I don't know really. I just got a random call from them." I whispered feeling empty. "Man I hope they are chill about Ryan. I mean you guys did tell them right?" Yuki's voice had fear inside it. "No we haven't really.." I answered honestly also feeling fear. "Yuki what do I do?" Allowing myself to ask for help I just can't hold it in anymore. "To be honest Tommy ask them why they are coming. It has been three years since you last seen each other. So why now? Is there something that they dislike?" Yuki stared at me letting it all soak in. "I don't know" I whispered feeling silly about not thinking that myself. "It must be to late. It is already time for them to board the plane." I groaned not feeling like a man what so ever.
Ryo took me to a five-star restaurant with most of his pay check which made me feel bad since he won't allow me to pay for anything. As the far most I had fun even though through out the date he stated that he loved me over and over again. Even in front of old people who gave us dirty looks. "Ryan let's go!" Ryo said getting into the car even more hyper. Shaking my head I went to the car and relaxed in the seat. "Where are we going now?" I asked and he shoot his head not saying a word. "Sur-pri-se!" He said with a low chuckle. It was a hour drive to get to where Ryo wanted which was where the love-rock lake was at. It had to be where he was taking me and it was. We both got out and he threw me a pair of shorts telling me to change. "Come on Ryan it won't hurt you!" Ryo said hugging closely but I pushed him away remembering how I told him not to touch me but every second he did. "Fine!" I said staring down the the cliff that was there and held Ryo closer to me. "If I die...I'll hunt you for the rest of your life. If we both die...I'll make sure you don't rest in peace." I warned him but I knew we wasn't since Ryo always did stuff like this. "1...2...3!" He counted and there we are both of us falling from a ten feet cliff then splash. Coming up from the water was hard since the pressure was heavy. "Whoa! That was...fun" I took a puff of air. "Yep..always" Ryo said swimming over to me pulling me towards him. "Ryan, I love you" He whispered before kissing me softly before deepening it. I knew it...I just ask stay mad at him....no I can't just not love him.
We reached home which was five in the morning and Ryo rushed to the door knowing that I would allow him to make out with me. I rushed to his side kissing him gently when we both led each other inside. I didn't expect Ryo to force me down on the sofa placing himself top of me. Ryo's tongue licked my bottom lip begging to enter. Smiling I opened it slightly where his tongue forced itself the rest in the way. "What the..." I heard a familiar voice cried out in disgust. "Sophia stop!" I could hear my father gasp before I felt Ryo pulled off of me and my mother's face glaring at me with full hate. "m...mom" I stuttered and she raised her hand slapping me hard. "Sophia!" My father shouted and pulled her off of me. Tears running down my face and hers as well. "How dare you become a sicko? Do you not remember me telling you about how nasty it was to be homosexual!" She hissed angry, hurt and concerned. My mother then faced Ryo pointing a angry finger at him "You...did you turn him?!" She asked about to slap him but I grabbed her hand before it happen. "Mom...no he didn't if anyone changed anyone it will be me. I've been gay since the beginning of middle school." I said when both gasp came from my father and mother. "How could you be so sick!" She screamed slapping me every where. "Mom! Stop!" I heard Isabella's voice with panic. "You young lady stay out of this." She growled at her and my father once again pulled my mother away from me. "Everybody sit the fuck down Now!"
" My Father yelled and we did but then there was footsteps on the stairs as the others came in with a shock expression. Tommy rushed over to me seeing that my face was redden. "What happen to you?" He asked lightly touching my face and Ryo shaking with fear. I don't blame him I was scared to. "Tommy, did you know that Ryan was gay? And that Ryo was involved with him!" Our mother asked trying to stay calm when he nodded. She looked a lot like me and when she angry her face flashes red. "You sly dog...that's why you said he didn't have a girlfriend! Because he had a fucking boyfriend!" Her voice raised a little and my father coughed before speaking. "Ryo, do you truly love my son?" His voice showed no anger or even disgust. "Yes sir I do" Ryo said with no fear and his face back to his normal color. "I see then it is fine as long you don't hurt him." Was all that my father said and my mother stared at him in disbelief. "Aaron..." She was cut off when he held up his hand "I say this because I will not chose my son's love life. It is up to him and you know my brother is also gay. You know that it doesn't bother me. You should also know how it feels to have someone in your family to be gay. Your sister for example!" He hushed to whole room everyone staring at my mother. "I...do not approve at all." She said before getting up and walked past me and my father stared at her walking away. "Ryan like I said I do accept you. I am not ashamed to call you my child." He smiled gently and walked over to Ryo patting his head. "I do hope you take care of my son. He is a caring person." Was the last thing he said before heading upstairs to my mom. I could hear everything she was saying. How disgusting it was for me to love another man and how it was wrong of him to accept me since he should always follow her thought process and then it was my father's turn to yell at her about how it wasn't right of her to hit me or how it wasn't right of her to disapprove since she had a bisexual stage in her life. Wow my parents can be loud. "Tommy what are we going to do?" Alex said with a worried look in his eyes and everyone else chattering about whats going to happen and if my mom will change her mind. It was when Ryo stood up kneeling in front of me. "Ryan, I know I've said cruel things and even made you cry more than once. I hope you will still love me even if your mom never approves of us." He stated as he took out a small box and opened it showing a ring "Will you be my boyfriend until the day we get older for us to marry?" He said blushing and everyone was either cheering or laughing either way Ryo wanted to be with me forever. "Get out! Get out now!" My mother screamed and my father helplessly walked back into the living area towards us. "Ryo, I am sorry but I would like time to think about it." I told him and my father looked at us confused "Ryan what are we going to do to have your mother accept you?" He asked with true worry. "Dad you were never here! Never you and mom should pack your fucking bags and leave" Isabella hissed with anger. Our father looked at her with narrowing eyes "I never asked to be away from you all. Your mother got a job promotion and your brother plus you two didn't want to go with us. So don't you dare put that on us!" He yelled at her and Isabella winced. "No, Aaron you could have visited instead waiting three years to see your children." Jake said defending us and my father face soften. "Your right. I am sorry for being a bad father and I can't make up the last three years but I do know is we have to get your mother to approve Ryan." Was all he said before plopping on the sofa. "Dad, I think we have to play a death trip." Tommy's face had a dark side. "We act as if Ryan committed suicide because of mom's disapproval." He said looking at me, Ryo and dad. "No. No. No. No. Your mother will freak out!" Our dad said and thought about it "Yes oh god Tommy your smart!" His smiled reappeared. "No I refuse for Ryan to act as if he killed himself just because you want his mother's approval there is other ways then him 'killing' himself." Ryo said with a hint of anger and everyone else agree. "Dad I think I want to earn her love and approval without trying to give her a heart attack." I said and both Tommy and our dad pouted. "That is no fun." They both said at once. If you were wondering they have the same personality with a weird imagination. "It is not suppose to be fun!" I groaned and Ryo patted my shoulder. "Aaron Thomas Knight get your ass back up here!" Our mom shouted changing her mind about telling my dad to get out of the room. I think my mom is bipolar. Everyone looked at my dad and his face went pale. "I get to do nothing around here!" He complained and walked up stairs. Since when has my dad have a sense of humor? "So who wants me to cook?" I asked looking at the hungry wolves "Okay I get it I'll do it now." I huffed heading to the kitchen when I heard cheers. I should get use to this. This is like having children and I am the mother of them all. "What do you want?!" I shouted and knowing them they all said bacon omelet. Cooking I heard a pair of footsteps on the stairs coming downstairs and my mother stopped in her tracking glaring at me. "So your taking my spot too? Are you the mother-hen in this house?" She asked hatefully and I nodded not backing down to her. "Yes I cook, clean and even tend to their wounds if they get hurt." I honestly said just to piss her off. "I am a far better mother then you'll ever be." I said before putting the last omelet on the plates. "Everyone breakfast is done!" I said not bothering to fix my own since she lost my appetite. When everyone began to walk in I walked out not caring about their clueless faces. I left the house going over to my aunts house for help...to help me not hate my mother.
I rushed into the house and ran into Vivian's shocked arms. "Sweetie what's wrong?" her voice filled with concern "I...my mom...back and everything going down." I hiccuped and she soothing me not saying a word at all. As we all settled in the living area my aunts looked at me waiting for me to explain. "Ryo and I was on the couch making out and then my parents walked in and my mom hit me and then she started to say hateful things. Auntie what do I do? I don't want to hate her but the way she treats me it's hard not too!" Tears fell from my eyes leading down to my neck. "Baby, leave me and Ryan alone for a bit" Vivian said to my aunt and she nodding leaving me alone with Vivian. To be honest, I just realized I've never been alone with Vivian before and it scares me. "Ryan I know how you feel. The pain, the hate, the confusion, and the revenge. I know all of that because my mother did the same." She said her eyes showing pure sadness. "I remember the night that I ran away from home. Right before I left that door I told her I hated her and her damn belief! I had so many connection and people to hide to stay away from her. Then one night I was watching the news at my friends house...(Her voice started to crack) It was about a women who was shot thinking that her teenage daughter was in a gangs house. She was shot trying to protect her daughter. That women was my mother..." She said trying to hold back her sobs "She died loving me and thinking I hated her." Vivian said tears rolling down faster then my own. "I didn't know I am so sorry" I began but she held up a hand. "No one knows not even your aunt. I am telling you this because if you keep this feeling inside you...you'll end up regretting it." She said getting up, walking over to me and tightly hugged me. "Go to your mother...tell her how you feel sweetie." She whispered and wiped her tears away. "Thank you Aunt Vivian." I said pulling away from her smiling and she smiled back. "Now get out of here before I dress you as a girl." She giggled and I did. Heading back home I thought that if I died would my mom regret not approving me and Ryo? Anyways that is something I should never think of.
I never in my day have I thought I would ever hit my own child. Ryan must hate me, and must think that I am a enemy. I just don't want him to get hurt with this phase. "Sophia do you really want to have your son suffer from disapproval." Aaron ask me looking deep into my eye and I shook my head "Not really I just don't want my baby boy to be hurt by filthy men." I admitted feeling my chest tighten feeling not but regret of how I treated Ryan.
Ryan walked into the house looking at me with teary eyes "My sweet baby boy come here." I said opening my arms for a hug and he came running into them. "Mom please don't hate me....please being gay is just the way I am." Ryan cried into my chest, yes he was only that tall. "Sweetie your father and I talked while you was out and I must admit that what I've done wasn't right nor acceptable. Please Ryan forgive me for hitting you. Never once in my life have I raise a hand against you or the others." I whispered petting his head gently and he nodded. "I forgive you mommy" Ryan said hugging me tighter and Aaron coughed letting us both remember he was there. We both looked at him and he had a face of a jealous child. "Come here" I said and he wrapped his large arms around the both of us.
I over heard my family talking and felt a hint of relief that my mom came to accept my brother for who he is. "Tommy...what's wrong" Isabella said sitting next to me on the stair case with a wary look. "I don't like it when they are here....seems like they are forcing themselves back into this family. I vowed that I wouldn't run back to them and claim both you and Ryan as my own when I got older." I told her knowing she'll understand me. "Tommy, I'm sorry for being a bother and ruined your teenage hood." She whispered trying to hold back her tears. I looked at her shaking my head. "No, never once did I thought of you and Ryan as a bother but as my own children. I realized what it feels like to take care of those you loved and had wonderful friends to help me out." Pulling her close to me and hugging her gently. "B..but aren't you tired of taking care of us?" She cried into my chest "Nope never." I said not feeling anything but happiness since my brother and sister mean the world to me. My parents lost the chance of being parents to them. Hours went by when everyone rushing in and out. When it was finally both my parents and I sitting in the family meeting a called forth. "Tommy what was it you need to talk about?" My mom asked said looking at me with slight worry. "Sophia, Aaron, I do understand the need to work hard to take care of your children. That is how I feel with Isabella and Ryan. I feel as if they are my own. Now what I wanted to talk to you about is that how can you come back into our lives when you walked out three years ago? No call or letters. Just a check to help pay the living expenses and then the rest comes out of my own check that I give to Ryan and Isabella for their allowances. Don't get me wrong I am not complaining. All I am trying to get is why now? What are you guys hiding?" My parents locked their eyes onto mine when my father let out a loud sigh. "We just missed out kids that's all. We know that we was in the wrong but I do not wish for this to break us apart Tommy" and my mother nodded in agreement. "Why are you children making us out to be the bad parents?" She asked tears building up "Because mom YOU left us. YOUR children!" I shouted fighting the urge to punch something and I knew that if I don't calm down I'll send them out without their shit. "Tommy you sit your ass down now!" My father said glaring at me. "What you going to do old man? Leave? You know what fuck off when I turn fucking nineteen I'll adopt them as my fucking own!" I yelled and was about to storm out of the living area and turn back "Get the fuck out of my house! Because I am not dealing with your shit! My name is on the fucking deed and I'll take care of this home. When I get back you two better not be here. Say goodbye to your kids because they'll be mine once your gone." I said with a evil smile on my face.
I came home from picking up Isabella from her last day in summer school and notice my parents rental car is gone. "Do you think they went shopping?" I asked Isabella and she shrugged her shoulders not caring. Worrying about our parents I went to my brother and asked him about his opinion. "Tommy where do you think mom and dad is?" I said looking at my older brother with large puppy eyes. Tommy looked at me with a something I never seen in his eyes before. Fear....is there something he done to them? Did he murder our parents? "Ryan...", my brother began uneasy, "I know that you got stuff straighten out with mom and dad..but I told them to leave since I felt they were not good parents. Ryan before you say anything..I already got a court case going. I will adopt both you and Isabella. All I have to do is prove I am a good parent." Tommy said tears building up in his eyes not understanding my reaction. "Please don't hate me Ryan..I am doing this for you both." He said and I stared. That was all I could do was stare.
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